one less problem to think!

 after few months studying for TOPIK (korean proficiency test) . not hardly. but few times just to realize the exam is gonna be hard, finally the exam day came. I think ive studied 2 days before exam more than I studied for a month combined. Last minute at its best. But ngl, i did study gradually everyday. if its not through textbook, i’ll study just by listening, and reading novels. or tweets.

anyway. today was the day.

I woke up early, studied a lil bit more, hoping the last minute vocabs i found helps. At 11, made dua, asked for my parent’ dua, my dad drop me off to the venue. I brought along my books thinking i can revise before the exam then I saw the long queue for exam registration. “ah theres no way i can read more, gotta find a good place”, went through the long queue handled badly by the committee, suddenly im already at my designated desk. lil did i know my study stopped at 11.

“폰을 꺼서 앞으로 보내줍니다!” (Turn off your phone and leave it infront)

Turned off my phone, and gave.

“아이패드도 있으시면 보내줍니다” (if you have ipad too, please leave it here too)

“Oh my ipad” turned it off and gave it to them.

My desk was quite strategic, it was beside the window, not having anyone beside is a blessing. and, I have “goodluck :)” written besides my name pasted on the table. weird. i look at others’, there was nothing. Oh, so sweet of whoever you are, thank you. with Bismillah, i started the first question.

the exam was quite smooth than I thought. I think, for the little effort I put into the exam, honestly, its not bad. Its not hard but its not easy. The time is very limited. I think it was carefully set juuuust nice with the amount of questions. i dont have a second to rest!

the vocabs were okay, its quite, readable? understandable?

the questions were okay, i guess?

the time, was my enemy.

“십본 남았습니다!“ (10 minutes left!)

and I was at question 36 out of 50???????????

I honestly just used my ingenious instinct skill and colored the OMR in. no more comprehensive reading happened.

But its okay.

I’ve tawakal!! Allah made it easy. I have to always remind myself that its not me, its Allah who made it easy (not that easy but just ok). ALHAMDULILLAH IM DONE.

I now have one less problem to think. i can proudly close my eyes to the topik related youtube notifications now. even, i can turn it off now. i dont have to think i suck for not studying and scrolling tiktok anymore. yuhuuuuu

ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH. im so relieved.

Also, I met a lot of great people there. everyone was so friendly. a lot of familiar faces. 용기 빌려 다가오고 말 걸고..braved myself to say hi. I was so happy to meet them. everyone’s face was so different before and after the exam, everyone looked so happy.

no matter the result, ive tried my best. and I will accept whatever Allah give me In Shaa’ Allah

Alhamdulillah. it was a great great experience. im glad i took it.